So I can't sleep again... common occurence for me. I don't know what it is, I think I just always have too much going on in my head.

That makes it sound like I've got lots of bad stuff on my mind, but that's not really true. For the most part it's good things.

I'm in a great relationship. It's not easy, I won't lie. It's long distance, which can make it tough. But I have trust and I'm in love and the distance just kind of disappears because of that... I've adjusted to it I think. Of course I wish that I could be with him, in his arms, but it's ok that I'm not, because I can remember how it feels to be in his arms, and I know that I'll be in his arms again in the near future. Even just with how much we talk on the phone I've noticed a change... like, I used to get upset if we couldn't talk one night, but now it's ok, it's understandable. We have nights that make up for it where we talk for hours and hours. Sometimes I wish it could be more time all the time, but hey, I'm a demanding girl =P

Another thing on my mind is college. Right now I go to Wake Forest, and yeah... I love the campus, I love the weather, the classes are pretty good... but I hate the social aspect of it. I don't fit in with the people here, the lifestyles they live. I only have one close friend here and even she frequently gets on my nerves. It's just one of those things where I don't feel like I could stay here 4 years and stay true to myself... I feel like I'm always defending who I am and that eventually I would give in to that pressure. I like being me (for the most part) and I don't want to change for anyone else. So I've decided to transfer. I'm still awaiting official acceptance, but I'm pretty sure I'll be going to the University of Minnesota-Morris next year. They basically told my dad it was a formality that I have to go back through the acceptance process, cause I got accepted last year but decided to come here instead.

Another positive thing for me is my friendships with high school friends are strengthening. I'm really happy about that because for a while there it felt like I was losing my grip on everything. My best friend throughout high school and I had kind of a falling out last summer and have been on-again off-again friends throughout the year, but we've gotten pretty strong in the last couple of months... I think mostly because we've made the effort to be there for eachother, anyways, I'm very happy about that. Also, last semester two of my close high school friends and I had kind of lost contact, none of us were really putting the effort forth to stay in touch... but this semester that's better too--I surpsrised one of them at their performance of Jekyl & Hyde and his eyes just about popped out of his face! But yeah, we're getting tight again. And another of my high school friends and I had done pretty well last semester, and are at about the same place now.

I don't know... I'm just feeling really great about getting to go back for summer soon. It'll be great to be with everyone again and be somewhere where I feel comfortable again. Plus... who can complain about being 6 hours away from my boyfriend when right now it's either a 24 hour drive or $300 plane ticket =P

On another note... I have had a serious lack of motivation lately as far as school work goes. I always have the good intention of getting all my work done but it just doesn't happen. I find something else I'd rather do... or find some excuse to stop doing homework and start doing something else. It's getting really bad, I think someone just needs to slap me and tell me how bad I need the A's this semester!! (so if you're nearby or will be soon... feel free to give me a slap =)

Well... it's time for me to awkwardly lay in bed for a couple hours before I fall asleep... goodnight!!!